Finalizing details

Up late pouring over details of the book. I’m finding that the closer we are getting to the launch date, the more nervous I’m becoming. What if no one likes my book? What if no one outside my circle of friends is willing to even look at it? What if it gets poor reviews, or that it does not connect with people the way I hope and want?

So many what ifs. it can be paralyzing. But we were not made to live in “what ifs.”

I can’t believe that in a few months this book with be a reality. Regardless of what happens, I’m so glad to share this book with others.

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I’m going to write a book!

January 1st was a Sunday this year. I found myself sitting in church wondering what the year would hold. I reflected on the previous year, 2016, and how thankful I was to be saying goodbye to that horrible year. SO many things happened that year that were difficult for our family. I was eager to embrace something new.

My mind began to wander a little. I wondered what new adventures might occur during 2017… All of a sudden, I felt a tug on my heart and heard the Lord’s still small voice speaking to me.

You are going to write a book.

WHAT??? No, I’m not going to write a book! I don’t want to write a book. Writing a book isn’t for ME!

A momma’s heart – a book for moms who have experienced a loss.

No, No, No!!! I must be crazy.

The book will be written by September for Amalya’s 5th Birthday.

Now I know I’m out of my mind. Nine months to start, write, illustrate, publish/print a book. No WAY. Not gonna happen. I have two small living children under the age of three and a working husband who works over 40 hours each week. I run a non-profit. I travel and speak. I volunteer as a doula to help families who lose a baby, and I take and edit photos for those families. I have my fingers in several other pots as well. Where am I going to find time to write and illustrate a book?

I left church unsure of what to think about the project that was placed upon my heart. That night around 11 pm I reached out to a dear friend of mine via FB and sent the following message:

So … I’m thinking of writing a book (short book). Would love to have it finished by September for Amalya’s B-day. Just needed to tell someone so that I don’t turn and run the opposite direction tomorrow AM when I wake up.

The following week, words poured out of my heart, mind, and soul. I would wake up at 2 in the morning, grab my phone write down words as they flowed out, then drift back to sleep. Words would come as I was driving or in the shower or during dinner. I would try and grab paper as fast as I could, trying to write everything down. After a week of this, I sent a follow up message to my friend on January 8th:

I have a first draft finished! Going to be sitting down with some people to edit / brainstorm / strengthen. Just wanted to let you know I didn’t run the opposite direction!

I couldn’t even believe the message as I hit send. How on earth had I written the basic bones of my book in a WEEK!?!? This was confirmation to me that this was truly a project inspired by the Lord.

By the start of February I found and signed with a publisher, and I convinced my mom to partner with me to help with the illustrations.

As I sit here now, a few months later, all I can say is – I’m really glad I didn’t turn and run the other direction!!! I hope and pray this book with bless many mommas.

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